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David Duchovny is such a weird guy. He was on Conan the other day talking about the 3rd season of his show, Californication, and told some weird story about his kid. See, the weird story about his kid sticks out mainly because there's now a running joke between ma and I about the really bizarre, disturbing stories about children guests on Conan keep telling. Really, it's scary! The scariest thing is, according to various forums, I seem to be the only one bothered by them.

Anyway, back to David. I really love him as an actor. As most of you know -- well, maybe not, but I'll pretend you guys know me well -- I love the X-Files. I started watching it at the beginning, and I even kept up with it when we were living in an RV for a year, and I consider it one of the most well-crafted shows ever to be on television. So, even though he's weird, I don't really mind, because I like what he does.

I had never seen Californication, but I'd heard about it. It's skeezy and dirty is what I'd heard. After watching Conan, I decided I wanted to see it. At least an episode. Well, I recently renewed my Netflix account(knowing we'd cancel our cable TV), and I noticed that on the streaming section they have season 1 of Californication! I decided to give it a shot, and... I could see why so many people(specifically women) hate the show, but guess what guys? I LOVED it. I like the fact I can both hate Hank(Duchovny's character) and love him at the same time. Let's just say I relate very heavily to his ex. His theme song is also awesome(sounds similar to "Young Folks" by Peter Bjorn and John, which I LOVE)

He has a daughter, Becca, in the show. A very cute, very interesting kid who plays in a band. She's one of the least annoying child characters I've ever seen in a show. Every time she swears, he charges her for it, and vice versa. It's funny to me because they're pretty much just playing musical chairs with the same set of bills going back and forth between each other.

Becca feels neglected by her father, and in one scene - after he's ditched her to go bail out the floozy step daughter of his ex - Becca's in bed, Hank comes in and sits down next to her, and she says this to him(in a tired, resigned voice):

"You never mean to let me down, but you do. You know, it's all well and good to talk about happy endings, but if a person can't deliver, if you keep screwing up, well, eventually I guess you kinda just have to say 'fuck you'... or words to that effect."

He refused her swear payment for this one, saying she was right, and he deserved it.

Death Cab For Cutie's "Passenger Seat" plays in the background on this scene, too. Definitely a favorite scene for me. (It's art imitating my life when it comes to certain storylines going on in it)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYNN AND KATIE!


photo: Tim Walker

Two birthdays in a row! I hope you both have a wonderful year! How's it feel to be turning 21, Lynn?! Heh. :P


I keep seeing people talk about homemade marshmallows on various tv shows and stuff, so I've decided what I want to try next when it comes to cooking is making marshmallows. Hmmm...but what kind? No idea yet. Maybe peppermint ones. Or uh...gingerbread ones. I think we could use some of these syrups we have around here in the recipe whenever I find one but we'll see. :P

I've figured out that I don't suck as bad at coloring as I thought I did. Inking, using markers, all that stuff...I just worry too much beforehand, but once I dive in, it's not so bad. I'm thinking about what I'm going to draw next, and I think I'm going to use some more of the paper from that giant pad I have. Maybe some random gestures or some ink splatters. I'm in a really good creative space right now. Gotta take advantage, oh yes.

Funny Girl was on yesterday, and it's been a while since I last watched it. Man I love that movie. I love the month of Oscar thing on TCM because they play tons of my favorites. :P I need to buy that one next. Wonderful music, wonderful performances. I really feel for Fanny I'll tell you. I really relate to her character in the sense of being kind of naive in some ways, not believing what's happening, etc. The whole dinner scene will shed a lot of light on me as a person if you watch it realizing I identify 100% with how she is during the song in that part. Sigh. The thing I love about this movie is so much of her character is expressed with tentative gestures and expressions. Very sweet film. I need the soundtrack to that, speaking of...haha

"No law against waiting. People do it all the time."

What do you know, part of the dinner scene is on YouTube:
Watch and learn!
BONUS:
Another of my favorites, in an outfit I would totally wear:
Rollerskates and ruffles!

Movies I've watched recently!


Exodus : hadn't seen before

Geez. Emotional rollercoaster. My mom has a huge thing for Sal Mineo, my sister sent her a few movies and this is one of them. I enjoyed it, had one of those WWII related storylines I'm always a sucker for. And I do think I have a big crush on Sal myself... (why do the best actors always get tragically killed in real life?) Memorable quote:

"The braver the bird, the fatter the cat."

Freedom Writers : hadn't seen this before

I was a bit doubtful about this and had no information on it going in, the previews before the movie left a lot to be desired, but I was suckered into this whole thing once the actual movie took off about fifteen minutes into it. I love stuff about teachers winning over students. Really touching. I enjoy Hilary Swank. This part really sealed the deal for me:

"You have been blessed with a burden."

Indeed.


Groundhog Day : seen it tons of times

I rewatched this because we just had groundhog day and I think there should be a marathon of it the same way they have that A Christmas Story marathon on TBS!! Groundhog Day is one of my favorite movies ever. I love movies where a person really has to grow and change and fight to win someone over, while bettering themselves in the process. I would go through all that crap if I were Phil... it makes me think about what I'd do if someone went through so much trouble to win me over. How would I react? It'd be awesome, to say the least, haha...really, it's one of the most touching movies I've ever seen. The whole concept of someone learning that much about someone...yeah.

"What were you saying?"
"I think the last thing that you heard was: 'Only God can make a tree.'"
"Really?"
"What I wanted to say was...I think you're the kindest, sweetest, prettiest person I've ever met in my life. I've never seen anyone that's nicer to people than you are. The first time I saw you, something happened to me. I never told you, but I knew that I wanted to hold you as hard as I could. I don't deserve someone like you...but if I ever could, I swear I would love you for the rest of my life."

The Philadelphia Story : seen this tons of times too

I watched this again yesterday just because I felt like it, heh. I've always felt a little bit like Katharine's character in this film in that people sometimes have told me I'm unapproachable, or "above" them or something. I get put on a pedestal a lot and it sucks. When she's realizing how people really view her, and she's really wounded by it, it's a really touching thing. Plus, Cary Grant is just the cutest ever. Who on earth could resist him, really? I'd sail on the True Love any day.

"The course of true love..."
"Gathers no moss."

There was this zip-up hoodie in my closet, no idea where it came from, and about 2 months ago, I was looking for something warm to throw on over whatever I was wearing at the time, and... there it was. Ever since, it's remained in my arsenal of often-worn items. My hair is still short enough I can still manage wearing a hood without my hair bunching up too much. It's just so comfy and warm.

I mention this because it's a good thing I have it, as it's been freezing and raining lately(yay), which I was made aware of even more so because we headed over to the DMV today!

Goal #1: Replace soon-to-expire ID - accomplished!
Goal #2: Replace expired handicap placard - in progress!

This is extra nice because my CA state ID expires on my birthday this year. All is in order now. YAY FOR THAT! The picture isn't too horrible either...for me. Next up is a doctor visit for a signature for the placard form and then...onto my other goals!


Mmm. I've been craving croissants for the last few months, and we finally found somewhere that has chocolate croissants, so I got to try one. Yum! Then today I had a plain one, so...yes. Very satisfying. I've been craving pizza too, haven't ordered a pizza in ages...next up on the list?!
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About movies...haven't posted about that in a while. Finally caught up on my recent rentals. A Midsummer Night's Sex Comedy and Scenes From A Mall. BOTH VERY CHOICE. I especially liked the back and forth rollercoaster of Scenes From A Mall, heh. As for the other, hahahaha, flying machines and implied naughtiness...is there anything better than that?

My favorite part of A Midsummer Night's Sex Comedy:

"Can there be love without sex?"
"I think the two can be totally different."
"How?"
"Sex alleviates tension and love causes it."


Amen. :P

Movie news! Finally watched American Beauty ... Damn. Welcome to my list of favorites! I relate to Spacey's character so much in that. Feeling like you woke up from a 20 year coma and all that. :)

"It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself."

Indeed.


Watched the Indiana Jones trilogy over the last 3 days, too. MAN! Why aren't movies like that made anymore? I just feel happy watching them. As with the Back to the Future movies and even the Jurassic Park movies, I get flashbacks of pink carpet, laz-e-boy recliners, and individually-wrapped pocket pies and my dad. Ah, memories. Those movies just give me a nice comforted feeling, really.

I also watched Keeping the Faith for the first time in years, also watched Bridget Jones's Diary and the Matrix again for the first time in a while. It's amazing how quickly my love was rekindled for those movies. Especially Keeping the Faith. It's reclaimed my favorite movie spot again. I just love that movie to pieces. It's interesting how my interpretation of the ending changed with time...I really enjoy the ending now. When I saw it in the theater so many years ago, I was a bit miffed as the credits rolled, but now I feel like it was just the perfect ending for the film. There's a nice feeling. :D

Returned my rentals and I hope to receive the Science of Sleep in the mail soon. I'm looking forward to checking that one out! I should probably rent Breakfast at Tiffany's too...eh. All in due time.


Also, I've decided that I may as well come up with a dream person for myself. I've never done that before. So, I've settled on this: I want to find a Mark Darcy. If you're out there, Mark, give me a ring-a-ding on my phone. I'll be on my doorstep in a heartbeat. Those of you who've seen Bridget Jones's Diary or read the book should know exactly what I mean. I mean, if I'm going to dream, I may as well dream big, am I right?

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Random:

I've got an appointment at 2:40pm tomorrow with a physical therapist. It's a consultation type thing, we'll see how that goes.

I ate the rest of my double box of chocolates already... :( BOO!

Oh, and thanks for the paid Last.FM time, Yai! Haha...freaked me out seeing a Recent Visitor box on my profile again. It's been a while. :P

I added new info to my OKcupid profile and had 3 new messages within 10 minutes. Haha...people taking my "PM me if you wear glasses" bit seriously, I suppose. Why do I attract guys in their 30s who enjoy mountain biking? I don't understand.



Last but not least(well, actually, probably is least): A survey! ( HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY )



P.S.

One of the best feelings ever is finding out you're not forgotten. I've had that pointed out to me a lot over the last few weeks. It's a great feeling.

a new birdie has been discovered in colombia. isn't that the snappiest bird you've ever seen? sometimes I feel like the only person who cares about things like this.


thanks go out to you guys who replied to my previous entry regarding movies that I should procure. you brought to mind a few fliks that had walked out of my memory and for that I thank you. my brain is like an hourglass glued to a table.



quote of the day:

guy: "When you go to Oregon, you should know they don't like Californians much."
girl: "How do you know?"
guy: "I lived in Seattle for a while."
girl: "...That's in Washington."

oh Blind Date, how I love you.

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I had a lot of weird things playing in my mind as I slept last night. one most notably included me as a very well-dressed male. I was trying to jump out of a window down to the dirt below. I remember trying to gauge whether or not I could fit through the sill. as I slid down the siding of the house and through the window, I remember never taking my eyes from the horizon of the hill ahead of me. I was trying to find something behind the house amongst the tall dying grass of the field beyond. I don't know what it was I was looking for, but someone was threatening to kill me unless I found it.

oh, and then after that dream was one involving a halloween party or something. madison was in a cute dress and all smiles.



who knows what's in my head, really. I wish I had a way of reaching in and pulling out the information I want. sometimes I feel like the answer to things is right there...if I knew how to reach it. whatever. sometimes I wish other people would just open their mouths and give me the information rather than leaving it up to me to flail around until I figure out what is going on.


edit:

and now for the first time in EVER, photoshop won't open. it loads up but then closes itself. I finally decided to use ctrl-s when saving and it was going along all smoothly and then I hit enter instead of clicking on the "save as this size" thing that comes up and it closed itself and now won't open, haha. what the hell. I finally remembered to load the pictures for my mom and it refuses to work. yep. go me.

ok, so I changed my verdict on cafepress slightly. they were super nice about my shirt problem, and in fact didn't even ask me to send it back for exchanging. no questions asked, they just refunded my money. yay. :)


I woke up this mornin' with Thingy's Cut playing in my head. go figure. also, yes, you read correctly: I woke up this morning. the past two days I've actually been sleeping by midnight and waking up in the morning! it's amazing! I feel so much better.

also, today I received the clothing I ordered last week! only one item doesn't fit me, and that's because *drumroll* it's too small. haha, I guess it's official now: I'm a size 1, not a 0. I'm almost sad about that! it feels weird opting for a 1 instead of a 0 since for damn near forever I've always worn 00 or 0... it's going to be interesting transitioning into a "normal" weight zone...ok, so I'm not up to normal yet but it's looking like I may be soon. yay. :)


I still need to design my christmas card for this year. I have no ideas at all. I had this great idea for some chick riding an anchor, but that wasn't for christmas. that was just ... for whatever.

we'll see what happens there.

how do I find art groups in my area?! any suggestions? where have you guys found any? or have you? is Chris the only person I know who has found one? well, besides Mina? :P THE DAY OF A THOUSAND QUESTIONS.





regarding games:

- - habbo.com is neat. I'm 3 or 4 years late, but while browsing an online store one of the adverts was for it and I happened to click it. it makes me want to play maniac mansion on NES again...which brings me to...

- - the box of NES games is missing a lot of stuff :[ I dunno where the missing games went! I want to play kickle cubicle, bubble bobble, and lolo! bah. at least maniac mansion is in there though :q

- - can't find my SNES, DC, or Genesis games anywhere :[

- - I think I'm winning that thread contest on gaia still. only a week to go now! wheee. could it be? I actually will win something for once?! that's 15k to add to my DJs fund! ...only about 14mil to go

I've become bored or something though, and I don't really see myself owning my quest any time soon, HA HAHA, bah. I have more time on my hands than most people on gaia probably do yet I'm nowhere near ace at making $$$. is it me or what? I dunno.

I think I'm just going to put off all this crap and read the books laying half-read in my room. I'll start with white oleander. I've been avoiding that one for a while but I feel it's time to pick it up again. I've been feeling the itch to flip some pages.


I can feel my braincells burning down. it's time to rebuild.



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( funny stuff heard today! )


I can't believe it's already october. my favorite month along with november! mmm.